Pregnancy Gripes

Okay, sometimes I feel like there is this pressure that you have to happy with every aspect of pregnancy or your a bad mom. I'm here to end that nonsense. There are some uncomfortable things about pregnancy and although Avery isn't here yet, I think I'm going to be a great mom! Here are my top 3 gripes about pregnancy currently.

1. I'm currently 35 weeks pregnant (2 weeks until I'm full term and 5 weeks until my due date!), and feeling like I've been hit by a train. Seriously. My back and hips ache pretty much all day, I'm constantly exhausted, and my legs get all cramped up and tight! Sometimes when I'm walking around I have to remind myself I'm NOT 90 years old. Is it normal to feel 90 years old at the end of a pregnancy? I don't know. I have to admit though, I haven't been keeping up with working out and I'm sure that contributes to my overall uncomfortableness. Oh well. I am going to start getting more exercise in after the baby is born. So long as everything is good and before I can REALLY start working out I'm going to probably take the baby on daily walks. I can't wait! I also cannot wait until I can start running again, or any kind other kind of intense work out. I really want to look better than I did before I was pregnant... hopefully I have the motivation to keep up with this long term goal. It's hard to stick to a work out regimen when you are alone in a foreign country. I need a girl work out buddy and I know I'll have this in Texas.

2. At the end of my second trimester, beginning of my third I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes. WAAHHHH. Seriously? Thanks, genetics. I was only a mild form of it, but I was told to watch my carbs and rule out all sugar from my diet. All of it. Like, every last gram. Um, that's hard. Kind of. My carb intake was already well within the limits, so that wasn't a problem. As for sugar, I did have some "sugary" meals and snacks sometimes but I never over did it. Matt doesn't like sweets so we just don't buy the stuff. This kind of made it more frustrating for me to have to reduce even more. I'm pregnant and hormonal, if I want a cookie, give it to me.. hah. Needless to say there were some unnecessary tears about it all from time to time. Sometimes I feel like GD makes a pregnant lady MORE stressed out than she needs to be. I mean if I had a severe case it would be different, but right after I was diagnosed my sugar levels for the past 6 weeks were tested.. and they all came out perfectly normal. That is great and frustrating news at the same time; If everything is normal, why even do this at all? Doesn't normal mean I'm already doing everything right? Maybe I should ask my doctor... oh, wait, I did that. They are German, there is communication issues and although they understand most things, there are something things that just don't connect... Ugh. I seriously wish I had an American doctor (but that is a whole other story). I just wanted to say this, though: I have cheated. Sometimes. Not very badly. But I have. And I'm okay with that! I'm the most paranoid overly protective pregnant lady on the planet I think. I would never do anything to harm my baby and I highly doubt the occasional semi-sweet snack would do anything wrong. And when I say cheat, it's still a slight cheat; I don't go crazy. It just bothers me because I would look up stuff on the internet about it and women would really criticize other women with GD who cheated occasionally. Seriously? It's not like we're doing fucking crack. Lay off. Geez! I don't know. Maybe I'm wrong, but this is how I feel about the whole thing. And every time my go to the doctor, he says my baby looks amazing. And in the mean time, I no longer stress about every ounce of sugar.

3. Last pregnant gripe: There are some things you just don't say to a pregnant lady. I'm sure there are MANY things, and I haven't even gotten the worst of it but here are some that bother me: "You look HUGE!" Oh, why thank you.... thanks for reminding me, now I'm going to go analyze my body in the mirror for hours on end. Or, "I don't know, it really looks like a boy to me.." Really? How so? To me it just looks like a pregnant belly and you are not an expert. Plus, all those high/low myths are bullshit. Please don't tell me that, I have bought all girl stuff, all I want is a girl now, and I have no boy names. I don't want to be paranoid about something else.. And last but certainly not least: "Oh just wait until the baby comes, you will REALLY be tired then!" Really? I didn't know that babies wake up in the middle of the night! Thanks for enlightening me. But you're right, I might really be tired then but at least I can breathe normally, walk normally, lay on my back, eat what I want, have a beer if I want, go running, drink coffee, NOT have constant aches and pains, and not feel like a beached whale. Also, I will have my little baby in my arms instead of in my belly. Which is the whole point of pregnancy anyways, isn't it? I feel like women who have had babies before feel like it's their duty to inform pregnant ladies of the lack of sleep they will experience. I don't understand why. It's like telling a marathon runner they are going to get really sweaty. Thank you, Captain Obvious. Okay.. I'm not sure if that was a bad analogy or not but I couldn't think of anything else. Anyways, I just hope I never find myself saying that to anybody. If I do, please slap me.

I was going to write about a lot more things, but, I've already written a lengthy post with no pretty pictures so I think I'll save the rest for later.